Frankly, I'm so damn afraid of N levels now. No idea why, suddenly so damn freak out by it. I imagine myself for passing N levels, but can't meet criteria for going sec 5. Damn sucky man! I don't even dare to imagine. Study study study? Keep reading notes? Arghhhhhhhh. Study sucks hell man.
Hope preliminary could come faster, so that at least I got to estimate my standard. Since mid year exams, I've no idea where my standard is. Because of all the underperform and stuff. My grades are average? or below average, slightly higher than average, high above average. Zzzzzz. My standard? Can anyone just test me.
I'm totally so sicked of people telling me that I comfirm go sec 5 de. Yes, somehow a relieve in me. But also a lil too high expectation on me. I'm afraid of my English, what if suddenly some mistakes apprear that are not expected? Not only English but also all subjects, what if suddenly some mistakes appear beyond our expectations. Geeeeeeeee
