Well, I've no idea why am I here blogging but yeah :X
Am I expecting things too much? Somehow I tht that after 2/4 years of friendship, we are able to know each other's character and there's nothing we can't talk about. Since we know that the person has a habit of that, than just let it be. After all, we are used to it already.
I've no idea why I felt a lil left out. Its seems that the closest friends I hanging out with, isn't the one that I can rely on. Moreover, it seems that those friends that "seems not close", are the friends that I can really speak on. Somehow I feel that its just looks like everyone is wearing a mask.
To me, if I want to know somethings, I will find out. But since everyone doesn't want to tell me, I will force myself to lose interest in knowing that particular news and even the person would want to tell me, but want me to beg him/her, I would say No. Sometimes people wants some begging. Not only others, sometimes me too.
Sometimes I really wonder what JAGSY means. Not only in me, but also in the other members. Does it means that a group to accompany you anywhere you wants when its your turn? Or does it means that its just a high-school fun thing? Or just some friends that always ask me to hang out with them, so I join lo?
Suddenly, its like I stand out of no place. I got the feeling that I'm just a accompany to people. People's replacement. Everything I do, eventually being hack care or anything. Don't you realise that every time I'm always the last one walking behind. When people needs me, they seek me. But if they don't, just leave me alone.
After all, our major examinations are coming. Maybe some will graduate from sgs, some will also promote to sec 5. Perhaps, after this year, we won't be contacting each other again.
