Damn my mum, she so damn fucking irritating. In the afternoon, when I want to get my chinese homework done, so I on my table lamp, then she start shouting/scolding saying its daylight broad! Can't you slide open your curtains? Btw, its not that I don't want to slide open it, its because, my room windows are facing, the next tower's backyard, which also means I can see what's my neighbour and she can see what I'm doing. Totally no privacy. Although, she always don't look at me, neither do I. Well, maybe she understand privacy, because she's an western.
So, I was bloody ass pissed off. And I went straight to sleep. After, when my parents left for my grandma house, or some condo open house. Then I start switching on all the lights in my house! Wahahahhaa. That was super bright, its like the sunlight shining into my house corridor. Of course, not to get scolded, I went to switch off once I heard my parents come back. Damn fucking pissed off.
Its like, in my family, from the physical appearance we gave people, people envy me that I have such great parents. Also, in physical appearance, people thought that my results are good and I will be praise by my parents or what so ever. But however, we're never satisfied with each other. Before I got my N level results, my mum went around telling people, that I'm for sure going to ITE. Rather than, saying, " don't know, hope she gets good results". That's what she told my aunt infront of me! Then after, I got my results, its English(4) Maths, Combined Sciences, Combined Humanities and Principal of Accounts (2) Chinese (3). The first I want to tell, wasn't my mum. In fact, its no one. Why? Cause, I know for sure, she will say, " eh, not very good leh." Moreover, she always compared me with my brother. So now, I got my N levels results, there it goes comparing, saying " not very good, just better that your brother by 1 grade" Also, during my 2008 birthday party. Its my mum who helps me clear out everything, every rubbish and stuff. And, Beverley said, my mum was awesome, if its her mum, she will leave everything for her. But however, I don't feel it.
Seriously, since we're not satisfied with each other. Why do we still continue communicating? She doesn't support me, in doing anything. She's totally indifferent. Whenever I got bursary, she will say, " why bursary only? Your brother every year also got scholarship!" Fuck! Its better than nothing! In her eye, I'm an ITE student, she goes around telling " I'm confirm in, for ITE"
Fucker, mother fucker, fuck your mother. That's all what I said to you.....My mother....someone that never praise anyone, someone that think she's perfect......
